is it really Christmas time?

Where the hell has 2012 gone?  I am sure not ready for this year to be over.  I have not reached my sales target and will not make it, unless I can find like almost 400k in filter business between now and basically now, since we are paid on ship dates not order intake.  I will be happy to start the work year with a clean slate and not forever be in the hole.  However, I am not ready for 2013. 

I had an epiphany the other day...I am half way to 66.  That thought absolutely firightened me.  I am also not ready to deal with the fact that my parents are closer to 70 than to 50.  I absolutely can not imagine the day where I can not pick up the phone to call my Mama with a question.  It makes me more and more appreciate the time I do have with my parents and really really makes me want to move back to Texas. (no that is not going to be possible in the near future, but I never rule it out as to happening,)  I certainly feel that I have so much left to do and why the heck did I piddle around for the first 33 years.  J and I want to have our own kids and add to our family, guess I need to get working on that.  I still have a very long bucket list, well I think I do.  I may spend the next few posts putting an actual bucket list together and start checking things off. 

However, it IS December 6, 2012 and 2013 is going to happen whether I want it to or not.....so I need to get my act together and live.

Days of Thanks: Day 30

I know that I did not finish this Day's of Thanks in the correct time limit, but hell, I am thankful I finished my first challenge!  I really did try to blog more this month and being thankful for things for 30 days helped.  I know there are a lot of silly things I was thankful for this month, but sometimes I think the obvious ones are over done. I learned so much from my friends that did this challenge also.  I am also thankful this challenge is over because I found it hard to be thankful some of the time.

Days of Thanks: Day 29

On day 29, I am thankful for the ability to listen to my smart phone through my car tape deck. Yes, I said it...tape deck.  I am rocking a 2003 Toyota 4Runner which at the time had both a cd player and a tape deck.  Laugh if you must, but I use the heck out of that tape deck. I have one of those tapes with cord on it that plugs into my phone or ipod to play music or what not.  Today, I listened to a few sermons on line from my childhood church.  There is something about driving across Interstate 44 that makes me want to listen to sermons, but with out fail, I always do.  I guess it could be all of the wonderful christian billboards, next to all the adult porn ones that affects me so.  My minister from Christ United Methodist Church in Plano, Texas has all of his sermons archieved on the church website, so I started with January and just keep listening,  It made my 6 hour drive home to St. Louis go by quicker.