Putting it out there

So yesterday I had a hard day. I had a great appointment in Tulsa which made making the huge long drive worth it. I was planning on working in Springfield, MO for the day and hanging out with one of my BFFs who lives near the area for the night. However, timing wise, I really did just want to get back home to my life in the STL. I am having a crazy spring where I am not home a whole week until the second week in May. I did get to have a great lunch with the BFF and good conversation about some of the things going on in my life.

After lunch, I decided to put in a CD that my Mama sent me quite some time ago from the church I grew up in. It was a greqat sermon series on "The Four Keys to Powerful Living". It had been a while since I had listened to them, and with a lot of the things I am struggling with it thought it would be a good time to revisit the series...how to find hope, how to stop worring, how to find peace, and how to find joy. Something in those messages spoke to me to finally reach out to that person I have had the haunting dreams and unsettled friendship ending person. So I did. I just texted her and to my surprise we texted back and forth...very much small talk til she someone opened up a path to talk about us. Well at least I know now that there is probably no way that we will ever be able to be friends again. Where yesterday this made me quite sad. Today I am still a little sad, but at least I have made peace with the situation. I can now say I have tried and reached out, when I wasn't even the one to end or take a break from the friendship. I can honestly say I have no regrets anymore.

I really appreciate the friendships that I do have in my life. I have amazing people that stand by me no matter what the circumstances. I have friends that I have lost touch with that have come back into my life. I am blessed. I would love to have more of these types of friends live closer to me. But no matter what I appreciate them and glad they love me unconditionally.