Blog Challenge: Day 25

What is your greatest fear?

I don't like to admit my fears. We have always been told that fear is a sign on weakness, and I have never been one to show weakness if at all possible.  But that doesn't mean I am not fearful of things. 

One of my greatest fears has always been being alone. I do not mean that I can't not be by myself, I very much enjoy my Paige time.  I have always been afraid of being lonely. I am blessed to have a wonderful husband, amazing family and friend, and hopefully one day beautiful children of my own.  I just have always feared that one day, I'd wake up and I would have no one. No one to love or love me back. No one to make it through the tough times together and lean on each other.  I have always been very independent but I do need the love of others.  I never want to wake up, old, alone, and no one to talk to or have a meal with,. I have noticed that in this day and age of technology we don't make personal connections as much as we used to. We text, Fb, or email and never pick up the phone for voice to voice interaction.  I am just as guilty as others. I see what is going on in others lives via facebook photos and blogs and feel that is enough interaction. I am doing my best to keep real live contact with people so we have fun times together as we age.

Another fear I have is getting fat.  I know this is a vain statement, but for someone who has struggled with their weight their entire life this is a HUGE fear for me.  I have battled image issues as well as other eating disorders and quite frankly, I don't think I will ever not fear this.  I think this fear is spilling over into my deciding to have a baby.  I want to have a very healthy pregnancy and sometimes I fear the weight gain in pregnancy more that the physical act of having a baby.  I just pray that the Lord gives me strength to face this fear.